Why don’t I like spending my money?
I know some of you will be thinking,
'Whose money do you now like to spend?'
Chill, that is not what I am talking about.
Like, why am I scared to spend my hard-earned money? Why😭. This is funny and not funny at the same time. I’m quite sure I’m not the only one who feels like this, or
am I?
Can it be inflation? Let’s not even talk about it. Or wait, that is actually the root cause of the feeling, because tell me why I saved up for something and got to where I wanted to get it; it’s now 40k extra, like, how? I couldn’t cry. Obviously, I couldn’t afford it again. Now, I want to spend the money on other things, but I can’t. This is me still awake in the middle of the night, calculating and recalculating why and on what I should spend the money, questioning myself about the need to spend my own money.
Money is for spending, so what’s the issue? Why the difficulty?
I couldn’t get answers. I was so disturbed that my dilemma continued in my dream, lol. It should not be a big issue, but apparently it is for me and for reasons I don’t know.
I then put out my thoughts on Snapchat, and one of my guys replied.
There and then, I realized what was happening. It’s FEAR! Fear of what I will spend tomorrow; fear of being broke. Because she tried to convince me that I should spend the money and that more would come.
👀
More will come, which has made me drink garri for two days because I decided to live small life oh, never again.
But can Manna just fall? ’cause I really want to have fun on the dance floor, go on tour till the sun falls.
*smiling in delulu*😭
Funny how I have never been scared of spending. It’s a lie, I have, but not as deep as this. So, what made this special? It’s Tinubu! that man, I just knew it. But, omo, people that are spending money are spending money, and I am here writing.
It’s what it’s (prolong it, so you’d get the feeling)
I will definitely listen to her and spend my money because, as she said, 'it is good to satisfy your cravings sometimes,' something in me awoke.
Gbera ni lē ( ‘Stand up' It said) 😹
So, I am spending, but I am still scared of spending 😭
Crying in shege 😭
Why am I crying? because if I were wealthy, shey i would be scared to spend money, or you would be reading this? Hell no!! You will definitely be reading this newsletter titled ‘How I lavishly spent or Why am I spending excessively' yunno, all these interesting titles are not this😭
I shall not be poor, say after me, but don’t you worry, I will be back, hotterr than ever! Wait for my return.
Thank you for reading, guys. See you at the next one!
