My Ex, My Ex, My Ex
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Life isn’t really all about my ex, or is it?
Exes are meant to come and go, right? But why is she not leaving?. I wrote out my feelings sometime ago.
Bruuv, that day my mood went from 75% to 10% 'cause I made her like the song and now she is dancing to it without me?. I then started wondering the 'what ifs' and the 'I wish’. I really love those times we danced to her favorite songs and how her dance steps left me rolling on the floor, but what is done is done now, right?
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Birthdays are special days, but what makes them extra special is a message from my ex. Ever since we broke up, she hasn’t stopped wishing me a happy birthday, like I didn’t actually screw up. You can say 'it is just a message’ but, my guy, it’s not just a message for me, as I take it personally, and it makes me happier on those days.
But what the hell happened this year? I waited till 11:59 p.m. on my birthday for her message to pop up, but it didn’t. Normally, I don’t carry my phone around, but because I was expecting her message, I carried it with me all day. As soon as I feel the vibration in my pocket, I’m always eager to check my phone, but...
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How dare she? How dare she hurt me? After everything I have done,?
Everything?
Yes, everything. I mean, when we were together..
So, why are you expecting anything from her? as little as a birthday message
Do not fucking say that! You can’t understand how those messages make me feel. It gives me the joy that spreads through that year, the courage to face any fears, and the help that cleans my tears..
And now that she didn’t write to you this year, what are you going to do? Wallow in pain?
....... I don’t know. I’m in pain. See my veins? I mean, I am drained already…
Don’t be delusional, man. Open your eyes and see
..but i always get her message; why didn’t I get it this year?
'cause you left her, bro!. You broke up with her at the die minute, and now she’s dead!. Today makes it four years that she has passed away. So wake up from this illusion and go pay a visit to her grave!
